Sunday, May 29, 2011
Find the path that leads to a rainbow ...
I can't believe it has been so long since I sat down at my blog and wrote a post.
I am still overwhelmed by the reaction to my Richard Fidler Conversation. Almost daily I am still receiving emails from people who have listened to it. I am still in the process of replying to each and every one. It is taking longer that I expected. I needed some time to distance myself a little from the emotion that came with doing it. It still is one of the best things I have ever done. I have helped so many people and for that it was worth it. Totally.
Since that interview, I have also started a new job. Me, the person who boldly stated that she would never work for anyone ever again. Uh huh. I really did say that. After spending the last six years working for myself, choosing my own hours and being able to socialise whenever I liked, I have now gone back to working full time at a place where I cannot leave until my shift is over. The most amazing thing is I LOVE IT.
Last year I finally realised that working for myself was having the opposite affect on my life. Rather than it being a way I could work my own hours and be here for my kids, it had beome a burden. I wasn't working as hard as I should during the day, which meant my nights were filled with guilt as I sat and tweeted while putting off doing the work I should have been doing during the day. Weekends were filled with much of the same. I felt like I wasn't having any down time. I felt guilty every time I saw my desk weighed down by the work files piling up on it. Not to mention the fact that our bank account wasn't going up.
I could have worked harder during the day and my problem would have been easily solved. Unfortunately I had totally lost my enthusiasm for my work. I'm not sure I really ever had it, but the flexibility was a big draw card. As time went on and the flexibility became less of a necessity and more of luxury, the gloss dulled and my mojo totally faded.
In December I decided it was time to make some changes I had been doing some work for a Brisbane radio station for a number of years ... nothing major, just a regular on air segment. Over the years I had learnt a bit about making radio and wished that I had been a radio producer when I was younger. It was never a role I'd ever thought about back then. After some pushing by a couple of lovely friends I went into my radio station and told them I was looking for work and if something came up that might suit me I'd like to be considered. I really didn't think I'd have a chance at producing because I am not a journalist.
As it turned out, I did have a chance at producing. I was asked to sit in on a few shifts and I was given a fill in role over Christmas, during which time floods, cyclones and earthquakes hit our world. It was a baptism of fire for me as a producer. I survived. A role came up to produce the Afternoon show on 4BC and I was asked if I was interested. I was. I am now that producer.
I am loving it. I am learning so much and having so much fun. I am totally aware of how lucky I am to be in this position. Granted I didn't get the role by pure luck ... I did have to prove that I had the skills. But I do know that I am lucky to have already had a foot in the door. I feel so blessed and so fortunate that I have been given a chance to totally change careers at this stage in my life.
What it shows me is that it is never too late to change your path in life. There is no point sticking on a path that has a dead end. Get off it and find one that leads to a rainbow. It is so worth it.