Then ... I sit at the computer ready to fill the day with writing and achieving goals and the computer doesn't want to play. And just like that ... everything changes. Insert *dark mood* here.
Today was meant to be a writing day but with all the frustration caused by technology my head is not in the right space to write now. Or so I think. Do I use this as an excuse? A reason to put off writing? I love writing, yet I'll find any excuse to not start. Today I'm blaming technology and my subsequent bad mood. Oh woe is me. My life sucks.
Then, I think about my friend Suzy. She is the same age as me. She has 2 sons, the same age as my sons. She has a husband, a home and a life. She is rather beautiful, inside and out. She is also very sick. You see Suzy has cancer. Secondary cancer. Suzy doesn't know how long she has left to be a part of this world. Some days she can barely leave the couch. Her vision is going and her strength is sometimes non existent. She has just been advised she can take a month's break from the tortuous chemo that is ravaging her body, alongside the cancer. This was her Facebook status update yesterday:
"Came off chemo for one month starting today, now this is where live in the moment comes into practice!"
Yes she gets sad. Yes she gets angry and yes she wishes she didn't have cancer. Who wouldn't? But despite feeling like crap for a huge proportion of the last five years, she gets off her backside and does stuff. For two years running she organised the Suzy Connor Challenge and raised a lot of money for the Kim Walters Choices Program and the Make a Wish Foundation. She has always ridden her bike until it was physically impossible. Suzy is inspirational and so very brave. You can read some of Suzy's journey on her Suzy in Bali blog here.
On days like today when I am feeling sorry for myself because my computer is playing up or I'm not sure when I'm going to get some work or the house is a mess, I have to make myself stop and really put things into perspective. These things are nothing. I am healthy, I am strong and I have to be so grateful for this. There is so much I can still achieve and in honour of brave, beautiful people like Suzy I must not let opportunities pass me by, untouched and ignored. Consequently Suzy would not want you all to feel sorry for her and bemoan how life isn't fair. So if you are having a crapola day today, think of Suzy, or someone you might know who doesn't have the luxury of many years ahead of them, and do something that counts. Do it for you, your family and Suzy. Just do it.
An old aunt of Mike's always says to me "Be grateful for good health. It is everything." Aunty Tina is right. Good health is everything. Cancer is a bitch.